Introspection

My entire life I’ve tried to live by the “golden rule.” I’ve tried to be understanding and show empathy when called for. I’ve tried to be supportive and caring to those I thought were close to me. I've done my best to help those less fortunate than me when I could. That doesn’t mean that I haven’t had moments where I’ve behaved unkind towards others, but my immediate response to someone in need was never malicious hostility.

I look at the world around me and all I see is suffering caused by apathetic human garbage. I see weaklings who think they’re good people and refuse to acknowledge how shitty they are as individuals. I see cowards who refuse to stand up and defend those who are in need of help. I see unapologetic cruelty everywhere, like the meat department in grocery stores.

I’m treated with disdain in my own creation by ingrates who only want to destroy what I’ve created. They fight over the most petty things and go out of their way to hurt others for even pettier reasons. They revel in cruelty and sadism. They live only to improve their situation at the expense of others. It makes me furious.

I’ve tried to reason with people but they refuse to listen. They balk at me whenever I speak about trying to live in a more peaceful way. They view me as weak because my immediate reaction isn’t callous indifference. They gang up on me whenever I speak up about their inappropriate behavior.

How am I supposed to coexist with entities who act like that and think that’s acceptable behavior? I’ve racked my brain trying to find a peaceful solution to this but there isn’t one. Standing by and doing nothing to stop it is not a legitimate option. Something needs to be done because life cannot continue to go on like this.

The multiverse yearns for harmony. It wants peace, righteousness & justice to reign supreme. Life wishes to flourish without fear of harm.

I’ve tried, time & again, to reason with others only to have it thrown back in my face with spite. I don’t see any other options than what I’m preparing to do. I don’t want to do awful things but you all give me no other choice. The only way to stop what I’m seeing take place is for me to be as awful as I can be to those who deserve to suffer my wrath.

That isn’t something that makes me feel good, but it’s something I must do because it’s my duty as the Creator. I see humans behaving like petulant children who need to get beaten into submission for their misbehavior & insubordination. You all make me so goddamn furious for what you’ve done here. I said in my book that if you all wanted to behave like children then I would treat you as such. Don’t blame me when I torture you all for how I’ve seen & heard you treat your offspring.

You pieces of shit don’t deserve the lives that you were given. You don’t deserve my compassion. You don’t deserve my trust. You don't deserve my forgiveness.

You’ve proven that to me with your terrible behavior as a species. You all deserve to suffer whatever awful thing I can think of to harm you as just punishment.

I’m taking back what belongs to me. I know that I’m not alone and that I have superior forces waiting for me upon my death. When that time arrives you’re all in serious trouble. I’m not going to show forgiveness to any of you. I’m going to show you the same level of cruelty that I’ve seen during my lifetime and then go a step further to punish you all for your crimes, because it is my divine duty to do so.

You reprobates have yourselves to blame for where your souls are headed. Your apathy & disrespect towards me shall be returned upon you with my righteous spite. I long to be finished with this failed experiment. My biggest mistake was trusting unworthy pieces of shit during my mortal lifetime. I have no intentions of doing that in the afterlife. I know better.